A day to breathe

Today is my first day off in a week. I am exhausted and my brain hurts. I don't know why. It feels like its been trying to process everything that's been happening in my life lately and its just hit a breaking point. Or the excessive amount of tv i watched today rotted it away.

I want to go on a walk. Through a garden. I want to lay underneath an oak tree. lay on a quilt. Eat green grapes and raspberries out of the container. I want to leave all my cares and worries at home. I want to breathe in the clean crisp air as I watch the sun fall and melt into the horizon. I want to watch the stars appear. uncovering their radiance like i'm scratching away the paint that once stifled their beauty. I want to lay there with someone, talking for hours and then let the comfortable silence set in where we can lay there without saying anything. I want to pick apart the grass. gather it in the palm of my hand and then throw it in the air like it is confetti. I want the sunburn on my skin to keep me warm when the night air descends on us.


Please dont die-

Night Hike

Last night I did something I don't think i'd usually do.
I went on a night hike. It was a full moon so we didn't have flashlights. only the moonlight to guide our way.
It was a really hard hike. I was so tired at some points but then at the end when we were up at the flag I felt so accomplished. looking at the view of the city was awesome, it made you feel so small.

I kept thinking about how there are so many people out there and yet i'm here with a group of 8 friends, what in my life has lead me to that point? its cool to think there is so much out there and even though you might be out of your comfort zone (i have been a lot lately) its worth it. the experiences i've been having I wouldn't trade for anything.

View from part way up the hike (i found these pictures online obviously because its not dark)

                                               View from the top!

I thought i'd be so beat today but i'm not sore at all, its weird.

Tonight:taking back sunday concert!!! yeah!!

Hot

Today I had to train to be a cashier at my work. the training consisted of sitting in a room with 8 other people watching a powerpoint for 7 whole long hours.

Now that i'm home i want to make something amazing to eat. like this:

I'm pretty sure all it is is graham crackers with chocolate ice cream and chocolate sprinkles. 

boom. delicious treat. its that easy. 

i'm so thankful for the sunshine and the fact that it is finally nice out side! oh and the peonies are finally blooming in our yard!  

Fear, and the simple things.

Today I wanted to write a little bit about two subjects that seem to be everywhere in my life.
I'll first touch on the  topic of fear.

 I think that up to this point in my life I have lived in fear. Not fear of anything in particular but fear of fear. Fear of missed opportunities, fear of saying something (or worse not saying anything at all) I wonder how different our lives would be if we lived without fear. Living here has really opened my eyes to the fact that we are who we are, if people don't like you for it then move on because there are more people out there that do like you ( unless you're hitler or something) and tell the people that you enjoy being around that you in fact enjoy being around them. Boom step one to a happier life.






The second topic is simplicity. So I want you to close your eyes and picture this. I am sitting in the break room eating some goldfish and looking out the window when all the sudden boom thunder and lightning storm.

 If you know me you will know that one of my most favorite things are lightning storms ( i love the smell,the energy, the unpredictability of it all) anyways there is a kid sitting next to me and we were just talking when he points out that lightning is just all these particles and its them smashing together and that makes lightning. He was going all scientific on me so i rudely interrupted him and asked why cant people accept things like lightning for the beauty it is, why do we feel like we have to analyze and pick apart every single thing in this life? why cant we accept things for what they are? then he looked at me like i'm crazy and i went on eating my goldfish. the end (you can open your eyes now. although i just realized your eyes were open the whole time because you read all of that. silly me) Back to my point... I have the gospel in my life. I know that i'm doing the things I need to be. I know i'm where I need to be at this time. and as long as i'm doing that the Lord wont let me completely mess everything up. so I need to stop worrying about everything and enjoy the simple things  in life.. like lightning and goldfishies.

365q

I found this website The 365q  JULIAN BIALOWAS is an amazing photographer that takes pictures and then he writes inspirational or simple phrases on them, I'm really bad at explaining so i'll let you take a look-sees. I want a giant poster full of these.

I Love them!!!

The sun starts to shine

This week it has finally started to warm up. thank goodness. I've forgotten how much the sun can do to lift your mood. it gives you an excuse to get outside and enjoy life again.

Me and Kenna at a family picnic

(thankful for the maggio family embracing me into their family)

(Dane,me and their new puppy Hiro-who i love)

Tonight I went and saw the new X-men movie. I was not a fan. it was entertaining I suppose.